Jake holding up his picture that he wrote Kindergarten on.

For a while I have been dreading this day. I tried to seem excited for his and others sake but deep down I knew this was going to be one hard but memorable day for me. Jake was so excited for so long until this week when it became a reality that he wasn’t going to be here every day all day with me in his regular routine. He was fine as long as we didn’t mention school. Wednesday we went to Back to School Night where he got to see his classroom and desk and meet his teacher, Mrs. Rasmussen, who ironically enough I went to school with. She is about 9 inches taller than Jacob- seriously.  I really wish I had gotten a picture of her with him but if I get a chance then I will post it later.  After that things were a little better for him, but for me its a different story. This morning he got ready and I cried while he ate breakfast, cried while he brushed his teeth, cried as he stepped on the bus and cried when I hugged him as I left him at school.

Jake waving bye as he hops on the bus.

 I let him ride the bus with the big kids then met him at school where I could make sure he got to his class okay. Call me clingy but I just do what I know since my mom did that for each of us kids on our first day of Kindergarten. On my way out of the school, some of my dry-eyed neighbors, who were also there with their Kindergarteners, were kind of teasing me which I was a good sport about. However, the bad thing was the school counselor must have thought I was some sort of emotional basket case because she caught me on my way out and spent 15 minutes counseling me on what I should say to Jake when he gets home and a bunch of other things. I must have looked like a train wreck because no one could stop looking at me as they passed by to leave. Elizza came with me for support and if it hadn’t been for her pulling on my arm begging me to go I think I would still be there, lying on that counselor’s couch digging  through my emotions. 

 I  know things will be different here at home the 2- 3 days a week he goes all day but I think it will be good for me to spend somewhat one-on-one time with my girls before the baby comes. Life goes on, I just wish it didn’t go so fast.

Jake waving as he sits at his desk. Elizza in lower right.

Jake gets to sit by Riley, his girlfriend from church. Elizza on right.